Party

i seem to burn straight through
i think i’ve lost my head
i’m trying to keep my cool
my friends are vanishing
i fear the time wipe out
for fear that i’d forget
the worst night of my life
or even worse, the best

you seem disappointed that your stories got lost
down a hole in the back of my head
all the infinite speaking and the secrets you told
well i swallowed them all then i crunched the ice
and i refuse to believe that there’s a problem
you see
i could stop if i want, i just don’t want to yet
i’ll creep the volume up, i’ve got to drown myself out
she’s a rattlesnake
some stereo mind game i play with myself
she’s on repeat, throwing up memories that haven’t deleted

i burn right through
i’m scared i’ve lost my head
i’m trying to keep my cool
my friends are vanishing
i fear the time wipe out
for fear that i’d forget
the worst night of my life
or even worse, the best

i still recoil at the thought
my head in the clouds, talking chaos
get flashes from hours dancing in some house
you were my escape
while a stereo serenades
the song on repeat
it’s hard to believe a thing
when my mind skips the scenes
everything disappearing

i burn right through (you)
i’m scared i’ve lost my head
i’m trying to keep my cool
my friends are vanishing
i fear the time wipe out
for fear that i’d forget
the worst night of my life
or even worse, the best