Rekindle 23

I been in that water, but I Ain’t safe
My dawg just finished trial and lost the case
Couple days before I was a pallbearer He done bury his jay
I ain’t walk up on his casket when It’s up
I ain’t want that to be the last time I seen his face
While I see my tears fallin’, I ain’t cried in a while but I seen blood
And this feeling deep, we ain’t lose connection, we ain’t talk bad, still my thug
I felt her soul when I was hugging her tight when I gave his momma a hug
I’m still mad we ain’t rekindle our flame, but you know it’s still love

I’m trying, but it’s only so much that a nigga can take
Inside I’m dying, everyday feel like my last, one day I will be away

With all my love been trying to make this mountain move
I still be trying even tho I know it’s impossible
How Could I be so foolish for believing in love
Knowing it’s limited moments I got with you and this time ain’t enough
Ybeezy lost federal trial and it got my head spinning
Grandma had asked me was I at peace I told her it’s been a minute
They say I beat the streets but I promise it don’t seem like I’m winning
God keep a close eye on me, know how I get when I’m healing
Know how I get when I’m dealing suicidal thoughts, I be tripping
I been outta touch with my feelings
Emotionally scarred but I’m willing
They say I’m weird cause I’m different
I still wont change with these millions
I’m crying pain cause I feel it
They ain’t say bad rules but I hear it

I’m trying, but it’s only so much that a nigga can take
Inside I’m dying, everyday feel like my last, one day I will be away

I been tryna move my feet but my heart just got me stuck
When I start to see that they care, that’s when they show me they don’t give a fuck
When I love, my heart start beating, I can’t let you in easy
When should I be the one to stay, when I know you gon’ leave me?
My tears tryna keep ’em tucked at jay funeral
But I was tryna stay strong, even tho I was vulnerable
I had a 23 bro before, But I lost him 2x
We wasn’t on good terms before he died, I wish I called his line
The shit we was fighting over, we coulda got over it
Had our differences in 2019, but nobody noticed it
I still loved you like my brother, I hope you know it
Embracing all my feelings, like a poet
I just seen the devil flash right cross my eyes
In my dreams I seen the shovel, bury me alive
All your friends in here, all my brothers died
Maybe I need you here, just right here by my side
Feel like bad luck is me, feel like I’m cursed
I know everybody got thru shit, But I got thru the worst
Hurt people, hurt people, I lied when I said I believe ’em
I wont be surprised if out the blue, my lyrics fa heart stop beating

I’m trying, but it’s only so much that a nigga can take
Inside I’m dying, everyday feel like my last, one day I will be away