Amazing

I caught a sickness and they don’t know the name of it
I flew to Paris trying to get away
I drown my sadness embarrassed by the shame of it
But all it seems to do is magnify the pain

I wish I was a strong boy, head in the sand
If I were them, I would be the man
My lips are searching for what happiness is
I’m dragging my feet trying to breathe again

Yeah I’m trying to feel amazing
Yeah but I can’t get out of my way
Yeah wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today

I tore the page and I put all of my weight on it
So I could stop it trying to blow away
The darkest days, well I got all I could take from them
Starting to think it’ll never change

I see my life is planned in front of me
I don’t need to do a thing just because I can
My friends are talking like what’s happened to him?
I’m dragging my feet trying to breathe again

Yeah I’m trying to feel amazing
Yeah but I can’t get out of my way
Yeah wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today

I’m trying to think at the same time trying to say something
Can’t switch off my brain so don’t meditate
Every time I crack a smile I can sense another tear coming
That’s kinda weird but what can I say

I know I’m on the edge and one push of the wind
Will send me flying deep into the unknown
I guess this is the time to let em all in
Coz nothing is worse than when you hit the low

Yeah I’m trying to feel amazing
Yeah but I can’t get out of my way
Yeah wish I could feel amazing
But this is all that I can feel today
Yeah this is all that I can feel today